Escape
this poem is about one of the nights when I was confused and full of mixed emotions.
it's within the embers of your heart
that gave me solace
it was the awakening from slumber
that really shook reality in place
for my bed is cold and empty
with just shattered pieces of me embedded
within every vacant space, I try to fit
a thousand memories we could've made
fantasizing dreams that never took place
beautifying your every mistake
and criticizing every effort I made
I try to find a thousand reasons for all your mistakes
justifying you when it's me who needs a shake
beating me down and tumbling for a ray
of hope, of help which isn't on its way
it is not pity that I need but love in its place
for all my wrong choices lead me this way
now into this void, I go, that's blurry and grey
trying to find an ultimate ending
an escape.